Wow--where did the month go?

So if anyone still checks my blog, I'm sorry I disappeared. I went back to work and there is always much to do when planning new classes. Then my wonderful sitter told me that she is expecting a baby in January, so I decided to start my kids in daycare. Wonderfully enough, the Y had openings and so my kids and myself have been transitioning to that change in our life. While it was not a easy transition, it is going better :) My relationship with my husband is doing so much better. We finally had that conversation that we should have had months ago but both of us were scared to do so because we didn't know how the other one would react. Anyways, the air was finally cleared and we are getting back to "us".

As for nutrition and exercise, my wonderful routine was broken. When the kids started daycare, I no longer could work out in the morning, nor did I have time after work to drive to my gym, workout and pick up the kids at a decent time. Then I got horribly sick! Double ear infection and strep throat, I am finally getting better but it's been a long illness--just over 2 weeks! So I'm going to join the gym at the Y today and start working out after work on Monday. I'm just going to have to do it. If I had the money, I would buy a treadmill and workout at home in the early morning but that's not going to happen.

Anyways this means my fitness goal of running the 5k in early October is not going to work but that's ok. I enjoy running and I can't wait to get back to it! I hope that everyone is well in your lives. I've got a lot of blogs to catch up on :)

Tired

I don't have much to say lately.
--I'm back to work--yay for better eating :)
--I'm working out at 6 am every morning--it's going well but my running is not on track with the Couch to 5K program--oh well :)
--My husband comes home this weekend, so after all the time of adjusting to this new schedule, I feel like we are getting back on track.
--My 4 year old son has been diagnosed with ADHD and we started meds. I'm thinking about joining a parent support group.
--I'm PMSing this week and craving ice cream like there is no tomorrow but I have not bought any!

Hope all you are doing well.

Ah the reality check!

Week 4 of Couch to 5k is not working so smoothly as previous weeks--damn shin splints. So while I'm not strictly following week 4, I am still running more than week 3. Hopefully I can try week 4 next week. This, of course, puts me off track for running a complete 5K in October. However I think that I can still do the 5K, there just may be more walking involved than previously thought. So while this bothered me when I first thought about it, a friend pointed out to me that at least I'm attempting a 5K, WHEN had I ever even thought about doing something like that? Uh....NEVER! And in discussing my shin splints while eating lunch in the staff room today, some people decided to share their 2 cents that running is evil--too hard on the body. Well maybe, and if it comes down to running or never walking again, I'll stop but I haven't experienced the "high" from any other exercise regime that I get from running.

I'm back to work, teaching high school math. I love it! My daycare situation may be changing later so I'll have to start working out again afterwork, not something I'm looking forward to :( We'll see what happens....

Ummm...hello...summer?

Where did the summer go? We've had soooooo much rain that it felt like summer was never truly here. Although this weekend is suppose to be awesome and then it's back to work for me. I'm very excited to get back to teaching and meeting the new kids entering high school. But I am going to miss my flexible scheduling and spending more time with my kids. I finished week 3 of the Couch to 5K. And this morning's run felt good even though my hamstring was stretching on the first few minutes. I honestly feel like this running is going to work well for me (fingers crossed!).

I am curious what other people eat pre-workout. This morning I had a slice of multigrain bread, 1tbsp peanut butter and a glass of V8 and felt great. The other morning I had a bowl of cereal and a coffee--I wanted to puke halfway thru my run. I'm trying to get out of my food rut. I read an interesting tidbit the other day that a study found that overweight people tend to eat the same boring bland food all the time. People who are thin tend to eat a variety of foods with many seasonings and spicy flavor. Apparently I wasn't part of that study because I love savory foods :)

I'm going to cry....

from all the SUPPORT you peeps have shown me! I'm going to keep the running in the 5K as my fitness goal for the next bit. Tonight was walk 90 secs, run 90 secs then run 3 mins, walk 3 mins, 2 times. I did it--I felt so proud and so happy when it was complete.

Anyways I don't know if the timing of the 5K is perfect but then one of my personal growth goals is how to deal with things that aren't perfect :( In the past I have just not attempted something if I thought I would fail and this has led to a couple of regrets for me. So this 5K will be something that I'm just going to have to develop the mindset that I'm doing it for my "personal best"...something our Canadian athletes talk about tonnes while at the Olympics--hahaha, especially when we had no medals. They are doing much better now:)

Another topic--how do any of you inspire yourselves to do the strength/resistance training? I have begun to do some form of free weight training every workout but I dread it so much. I know that the more training you do, the less cardio you need to do. Theoretically--muscles burns more calories than fat, so the more muscle mass you have, the more calories you burn...but I hate it. I think it's because:

1. I'm surrounded by bulging muscles and tattoos--why? what is the connection there?
2. I'm surrounded by mirrors--I have avoided full length mirrors for a VERY LONG time.
3. I'm not a co-ordinated person and feel clumsy with my movements--although this is improving...

So I need to know how you all get your motivation together for tackling the weights?

Life is what you make it...

and I believe that...so I will choose to be positive (see previous post).

Ok so I've been toying with the idea of running a 5K. I have been following the Couch to 5K program (modified version). The CIBC Run for the Cure is scheduled (in my city) for October 5. That is the exact date when I'm scheduled to finish the Couch to 5K program. I would like to have more experience under my belt before then but there will not be another opportunity until Spring...I'm going to think about it. I think it's the motivation I need to keep up with the running, which I'm liking much.

We'll see :)

My iPod healed itself!

Ok so I thought it was toast, apparently I just let the battery run down--THANK GOD! Today's workout was much needed and very therapeutic.

Is anyone else watching Big Brother 10--I am addicted to bad reality tv shows but Big Brother is usually my favorite. However, this year, I have no idea how they found so many loud mouthed, annoying and obnoxious people to place in one house. It must be the new criteria to make it more watchable (roll of the eyes)...I don't think I like one person enough to root for them to win half a million dollars.

Today I had lunch with a friend from my university years. She last saw me around one year ago and she said to me "You look just amazing, how much weight have you lost?" When I told her 40 lbs, she said she could believe it and what was my secret. Her comment was just what I needed today. For the last few weeks, I've been feeling out of sorts. I didn't want to care what I ate, what time I ate or how much I ate. I still wanted to exercise but my eating has been out of control. 3 nights ago I had a big bowl of peanut butter fudge crunch ice cream for supper--I don't even want to think about how many calories it was or how much fat :( After I ate it, I asked myself do you really want to go back to your old FAT self...I'm still overweight but I don't feel FAT anymore--know what I mean?? Anyways when my friend was complimenting me today, I realized that even though I feel tired of what I'm doing, it was working for me. As well, I need to re-examine why I wanted to lose weight in the first place. And you know what, even though I've been telling people that it was for me, that wasn't the honest truth. The honest truth was that I wanted to improve my relationship with my husband, I wanted our sex life to be "hot" again. I thought if I lost weight, then maybe we could rekindle what we once had. But I realize now that what we once had is maybe gone and maybe I need to say the heck with him and trying to make him happy, I need to focus on what makes me happy. But what do you do when you think it's him that makes you happy?